Trusting myself

Last weekend I went dress shopping with my friends and ended up buying a dress at the spot. And my friends were shocked of how decisive I was. 

The reality is that is my essence, this is who I always was since I was a kid. Lets take this dress as an example. I don’t look over every single detail of how the finish is, or the cut, or how it is stitched, I mean I look for a style that suits my body shape and how good it looks on me. But the truth is, I focus more on how I feel in the dress, do I envision myself wearing this on the day? Does this complement how I feel inside? Am I smiling, happy, joyful wearing it? Does it feel like me? Does is it feel light (not only weight wise) but does it feel light in my soul?

And for a while I forgot to connect with the intuitive part of me, I would question my decision, myself, my thoughts, my opinions, my views and my morals. I would question me, I assumed I didn’t know what’s best for me and that others would just tell me and I should listen to them without question. 

Even when I would just follow, I had my “stubborn” moments where I would put my foot down and do what I feel is right for me in my gut. I don’t know when or where I decided to stop listen to myself. But I know since then it has been a series of decisions that resulted in an unfulfilled life.

Now that I am regaining trust in myself, I see the difference. I feel connected to myself and even though my life is not how it was 10 years before (top of my career, really good pay, busy and uppity lifestyle…etc). I feel more aligned with my soul, I feel lucky, I feel happier than I ever was, I am richer and more abundant, and I have and always  will be blessed.💛